I suffer badly from comfort eating, 10:15 pm last Saturday night, I crammed myself down with a pack of Salt and Vinegar Chips (such a British thing). I don’t usually justify myself with reasons for why I go miles away from my ‘healthy, athlete, protein-rich diet’, but it usually happens when I feel like I care so much that I just don’t care about anything. Basically anxiety along with teenager attitude…
In less than 24 hours, I watched two really, really, really good films. Let’s be honest, I am not the type of girl who likes watching comedic love drama, I am more like historical related movies? Amazing! Inspirational? Just what I need!
Movie 1: Three Idiots
Friday night, just made it through the school week of lessons like ‘You got to revise for this’, ‘Lets do a past paper’ and all those pre-exams talks. Three Idiots enlightens me. I am not joking. I was forced to memorized and learned by cramming at my previous school. I spent hours, literally hours to remember a poem in Chinese that has approximately 30 words. My roommates would then laugh at my poor memory. But why would I remember anything if I am forced to remember it for just getting a better grade in the exam?
I am learning quite a lot here, mostly because I actually enjoy and want to learn more about it. Everything is not about grades, but what I want and can achieve. However, I have to say the recent pre-exams talks made me felt like once again, I am forced to memorize words to words definition in the textbook. And Three Idiots really made me recognize what I am doing, and how badly I might suffer again from all of this nonsense in achieving A*.
No, I am not saying that people getting straight A* are nothing but with the best memory, in subjects like History and English, you actually need to put forward your reasons and articulate it. I am predicted basically all A* except for DT. My DT practical coursework is due in less than two weeks, and I am not even half way through it. Watching Three Idiots reminded myself of why I chose DT at first- because of the joy of doing something I have never done, and do it without a textbook. I just feel like Three Idiots really taught me that I should be doing things that made me happy and do things happily.
I have never actually felt this right after watching the movies (with lots of tears and swollen eyes next morning), I think I might have for the first time discover and be kinda clear of what I want to do in life. I want to do Maths, Further Maths, Biology and Economics in A-Level (assuming UWC rejected me), take a gap year, I am not sure what to do with uni, then go on and work at an NGO or United Nations. Then after a while when I find out that the world needs futuristic people, I am going to be a teacher.
Movie 2: The Help
I am embarrassed to say this but the book probably had sat on my desk for months, and I eventually watched the movie first on Saturday evening.… I don’t actually know where to start, but I felt like The Help has taught me to brave and really stand up for what I believe in. I remember in the past when people just treat me as a joke when I talked about polar bears, environmental issues and the lack of food security in many countries (I was quite a hippie). I think back to the times when I stood up for what I believe in when people think that I was insane. I feel so proud of myself doing what I did. I am not being narcissistic, but I have really grown and learned so much more about the world.
The Help talks about this caucasian young writer who was secretly writing about the civil rights in America around 1960s, from the perspective of African-American maids that work for rich caucasians. The writer, though was in the high-end of the society, still stood up for equality and what she believed in. Despite of the chance of being segregated from the high-end society and arrested, she was not afraid to speak the right thing out loudly. It’s the courage in her, that really inspires me, and make me reflect myself deeply.
What have I really done to speak up for the injustices in the world? Not much. I write a blog, I post things on social media, and that’s basically it. I am typing this on a Macbook, I got three types of fruits next to me, a bottle of clean water, my smartphone is playing musics from Spotify, and there is 10 books and countless school materials on my desk. Why do I get to have all of these privilege, when there are so many people around the world who don’t even have a home, not to mention what I just say.
Sometimes I feel like I am so weak, and I am just another selfish human with greeds that the world can’t sustain.’The world has enough for everyone’s need, but not enough for everyone’s greed’- Mahatma Gandhi